S.I.P #15 ("Drinking With The Enemy")

I thought it would be the end of me
When you saw me drinking with the enemy
But I didn't think to quit
It's not the right time nor the right place
To stop on a dime just to save face
I grabbed a newspaper
Just to make it look like I care
But the outside world meant nothing to me
All I wanted was an apathetic way to be
Revel in the Devil's sin
Drinking just to be 'in'
The elite group of the disenchanted
And gave up everything to ensure that wish was granted

S.I.P #14 ("Never Alone")

A burst of light flashes from the television screen
And the color clashes with it's dark surroundings
My knees are bloody and my heart is broken
My eyes are drowning in the flood of tears caused by my sin
But I feel safe because of the word's You have spoken

Here I am, rasing my hands in praise to you.
Now I know that I will never be alone.
Because you have brought me through
The times when I did not know what to do
I'll admit that I still have my doubts
But I'm confident You'll work those out

S.I.P #13 ("To Be")

They say I'm nothing short of brave
For digging up my skeletons
And exposing these dirty graves
The truth is, I was not brave enough
To live another day without God's unfailing love

I stand upon the mistakes I've made
In hopes of reaching a higher place
It's not a matter of having guts
I simply have had enough
Of failing on my own
So I'm giving up on going alone

Make me, stronger
Fortify me with Your mercy
I'm faking no longer
Honesty has revealed me
To be the person I never wanted
Doing things I said I wasn't
Now the only thing I want is just to be

"You're so great for coming clean!"
Are you even listening?
I said that I denied God's existence
And pursued wrong with persistance