S.I.P. #10 ("Better For Me")

If I could get you to believe that I have no feelings
I think it would be better for me
Because you don't need to know what I'm really thinking
It's what I shouldn't be thinking
And if I could make you think that I'm not doing
The things I love to do the most
It would be better for me

Given a picture to paint by the numbers
I just couldn't use the prescribed colors
Can you still make this beautiful
I never could stay inside the lines
'Cause it takes too much time to do things right
Can you make my efforts fit

I try to come across like I have no cares
But believe me, I care more than most
And I scare easier too
Any 'ol ghost can haunt my thoughts forever
They just need to bring up the night I let it all go

Given a picture to paint by the numbers
I just couldn't use the prescribed colors
Can you still make this beautiful
I never could stay inside the lines
'Cause it takes too much time to do things right
Can you make my efforts fit

No doubt, I've got it all figured out
That's what I try to portray
I'm sure my doubt comes across anyway
I don't think anyone is who they think they are

Given a picture to paint by the numbers
I just couldn't use the prescribed colors
Can you still make this beautiful
I never could stay inside the lines
'Cause it takes too much time to do things right
Can you make my efforts fit
Or do I have to be perfect
I can't be, even with the strength of grace
You'll have to replace me with someone else
'Cause I suck at talking nice and being polite
Could that turn out better for me
Am I the man I'm supposed to be
I feel I should be doing so much more
But I don't want it that bad

Sometimes to lift us up
He has to let us fall