Nod Your Head If You're Feeling This

Failed Attempts At Conveying What's Inside. These make much more sense when backed by the music they were written with, but this will have to do for now.

3.22.2004

Straightway #1 (I Want)

I wan'a be holy, wan'a be clean.
I wan'a be accepting, don’t wan'a be mean.
I wan'a see your glory, wan'a hear your voice.
Wan'a have a thankful heart, wan'a rejoice.
Yesterday was the day I cried.
Yesterday was the day I died.
Yesterday was the day fell,
It was the day I rung the bell.
Yesterday was the day I crumbled.
It was the day I mumbled:
I want more for living this life,
I want more for striving to be like, you.
I want more for all that I do,
I want more for what I go through.
Some people think I’m a fake.
They see what I do and don’t believe that I believe in you.
I wan'a see the changes love can make,
I want them to see I’m not a fake.
So please come and rejuvenate my heart.
I wan'a be holy, I wan'a be clean.
I wan'a be accepting, don’t wan'a be mean.
I wan'a see your glory, wan'a hear your voice.
Wan'a have a thankful heart, wan'a rejoice.

Comet HV #3 (Falling Away)

Only one more day, 'til it all falls away.

I’m falling to nothing-ness,
Ignorance ain’t bringing bliss,
Finding nothing but emptiness,
I’m falling away.

Finding it all would be the grand ending to a lifetime spent searching for it all,
So much time spent in the fall, yet I’m still:

Falling to nothing-ness,
Ignorance ain’t bringing bliss,
There has to be more than this,
I’m falling away.

The rain starts pouring, with no sign of stopping,
It just keeps coming and now it’s flooding.
My life justs sinks, it’s drowning in a loss of meaning.

And I’m falling to nothing-ness,
ignorance ain’t bringing bliss,
finding nothing but emptiness,
I’m falling away (there has to be more than this)

There’s a coffin waiting for my descent,
Ready for any evil intent.

Comet HV #2 (Come With Me)

You actually believe in these people?
You actually put trust in their lies?
You actually listen to their stories?
You actually look in their eyes?

Come with me, now, we’ll take a ride
Please come join me on the other side
We’ll go away from all the things you knew
Leave behind the harm you’ve been through

You actually believe in these people?
You actually put trust in their lies?
You actually listen to their stories?
You actually look in their eyes?

I can’t believe you trust in these people
just listen to me: you are beautiful!
They just try to drag you down
underwater, make you drown
They just want to eat the crumbs falling from your face
They wouldn’t care if you left this place
So come with me, please, I beg you
Leave behind all these things you do
Society has no place for us
Let’s leave them crawling in the dust

You could have been a star, if you’d stayed true to their predictions
You would have gone far, if you’d followed their calculations
I admire the fact that you turned it all around
won’t you come and find fame with me underground

You actually believe in these people?
You actually put trust in their lies?
You actually listen to their stories?
You actually look in to their eyes?
Come believe what’s true,
it’ll be just me and you
Please, please, come with me

S.I.P. #4 (Break Me, Kick Me, Choke Me)

I will be mean to you tonight
'Cause you broke me, you break me every time
No longer will I be nice
'Cause you kicked me, you kick me every time
You choked me, you choke me every time

Comet HV #1 (A Beauty Queen's Photo Barrier)

There’s a ghost in the window, he asks to take a picture
You say, “I don’t know... oh, okay, sure.”
The photograph turns out fine
Captures the perfect moment in time
I wish that it could be mine
‘Cause that picture changed your world
Yeah, that photograph was the end of my world

It brought hope throughout your life
Made everything turn out right
And gave you confidence through the night
They all said you looked pretty, all said you looked cool
Little did they know you never made it through school
The picture didn’t show the status of your soul
They will never know, never have a clue,
Not even a glimpse at the real you
You hide behind that photograph
To take attention from your heart
When I talk of your past
You don’t even want to start

She’s let this photo barrier
Pick’er up and carry her
It’s covering the scars
Putting her among the stars
She’s a phony, nothing you see is real
Every picture really does steal
Just a little more of her reality
And makes what she wants us to see

She’s a beauty queen (her soul’s on lease)
Says she’s not mean (wants world peace)
She’s got a crown on her head
But what does that mean when she’s dead
Absolutely nothing

Song In Progress #3 (When You're Near Me)

Someday I may go blind
But never enough to stop seeing you
'Cause, girl, you're inside of me
Painted my mind with your picture
So I could finally get some sleep

I can't breathe when you're near me
(‘cause the air, rightfully, tries to please only you)
I freeze when you're near me
(‘cause all energy is consumed by the power of your smile)
I feel more alive when you're near me
(‘cause you provide a reason for me to keep living)
I thrive when you’re near me
(‘cause the things I need, happen to be your specialties)

Song In Progress #2 (Loaded Napkin)

Tell me what happens
When you wrap a gun in a napkin
Does it still wipe away the stains
I was there when you killed a man
Saw the blood in his hair and the pistol in your hand
Right then I just wanted to spend
some time away from you my friend
I'm back, once again, after much time spent
Thinking 'bout what I should do
Now the guns in my grip
And I've got the sight aimed dead-on you
But I choose to let you up of the floor
Put the loaded napkin back in the drawer
A second chance is something everyone could use

3.21.2004

Song In Progress #1 (Untitled)

Climb out of the window, dig into the ground
Put your ear up to the soil and wait to hear the sound
The passerby, he wonders why you're just standing there
You reply, with your sight, in a cold and daring glare

Look up, the sky is like a pie
Take a piece and make it your's tonight