S.I.P #17 "Get Up And Do"

temporary pain you can't measure
the day the feeling came was good weather
until i heard the rain i did't know whether to stay or go
after much deliberation, i chose the latter
you tried to reach out but it didn't seem to matter
i was deep inside myself and tethered to my ways

Get up and do something more than you've ever dreamed.
Get up and do something more than you've conceived.
imagined or fathomed


Why wait, when you can have it now
just take a look around
kick whatever's down
Reach out, grab what you can

Dry Spell

I haven't written anything in a very long time. I've been trying to force some stuff out hoping that it would get the juices flowing and that writing would become natural again but so far no luck. My first priority is finishing my first novel, The Silver Dollar Story. Add it on myspace to get the first look. www.myspace.com/thesilverdollarstory

Long Gone (But Still Hanging On)

Caught in a haze
I remember the days
When you and I used to be cool
We would just drive
Singing like we knew the words
to every song on the radio
even though we knew only a few

I'm still hanging on to things that are long gone.
(You have moved on.)

DISCLAIMER

I'm going to be doing some major overhaul to the content of this blog, so read this stuff while you can. I've decided to stop putting up everything I write and to only post songs that are somewhat complete. This means that most of the 'Songs In Progress' will be taken down. It also means I will post less frequently. I'm going to go back through what old stuff I have, most of it was lost when my hard drive fried, and post it also. I'm almost ready to start recording some demos, I'll be keeping a studio log here when I do. Hope you and your family has a great holiday season! Go watch ELF!!!!

S.I.P #16 ("i ' m s o l o s t i c a n ' t b e f o u n d")

the whiskey burns right through my pain
but i think i want to take it all away
is this the day
is this the day
is this the day
i'm staring at my wrists trying to resist
the tempation to make them spit
spew the blood that feeds my heart
it's been so malnourished for so long
i'm not sure this would even be wrong
is this the day
is this the day
is this the day
once again i've let it all slip
see my sin as i slowly slit my wrists
no
no
no
it is never the day
it was September, 22nd when I realized
that in my life i'd missed the point
I've been running by this angel
that you sent to save my life
she's stepping up; bunkered down on bended knee
God don't let me let her getaway
apathy is slowly killing me
clever
lines
are
so
hard
to
find
so i'll write just what's on my mind:

lot's of blank spaces lots-o-whines

today is the day
to change

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii am so lost
that iiiiiiiiiiiii never expect to be found
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'm so sorry i've let you down
you should just move on
(god, didn't i ask you to not let me let her go)
answered prayers are a thing of my past
cliches are the new now
g o o n t o b e t t e r t h i n g s
i'm too busy suffering (not literally)... so screw me (figuretively)....................................

S.I.P #15 ("Drinking With The Enemy")

I thought it would be the end of me
When you saw me drinking with the enemy
But I didn't think to quit
It's not the right time nor the right place
To stop on a dime just to save face
I grabbed a newspaper
Just to make it look like I care
But the outside world meant nothing to me
All I wanted was an apathetic way to be
Revel in the Devil's sin
Drinking just to be 'in'
The elite group of the disenchanted
And gave up everything to ensure that wish was granted

S.I.P #14 ("Never Alone")

A burst of light flashes from the television screen
And the color clashes with it's dark surroundings
My knees are bloody and my heart is broken
My eyes are drowning in the flood of tears caused by my sin
But I feel safe because of the word's You have spoken

Here I am, rasing my hands in praise to you.
Now I know that I will never be alone.
Because you have brought me through
The times when I did not know what to do
I'll admit that I still have my doubts
But I'm confident You'll work those out

S.I.P #13 ("To Be")

They say I'm nothing short of brave
For digging up my skeletons
And exposing these dirty graves
The truth is, I was not brave enough
To live another day without God's unfailing love

I stand upon the mistakes I've made
In hopes of reaching a higher place
It's not a matter of having guts
I simply have had enough
Of failing on my own
So I'm giving up on going alone

Make me, stronger
Fortify me with Your mercy
I'm faking no longer
Honesty has revealed me
To be the person I never wanted
Doing things I said I wasn't
Now the only thing I want is just to be

"You're so great for coming clean!"
Are you even listening?
I said that I denied God's existence
And pursued wrong with persistance

S.I.P. #12 ("Phantom Girlfriends")

It's nearly 3:25
The sun's not in the sky
But I'm still up thinking of you
I try to tell my brain
That dreaming's just the same
But imaginary situations just won't do

I'm sick of all these phantom girlfriends moving in and taking up space
Twirling round in fantasy whirlwinds, I now see my heads not on straight

Her eyes connect with mine
For what seems an eternal time
So I've made up my mind
To speak with her the next chance I find
Chances are chances won't come
Surely I'll pass over them

I'm sick of all these phantom girlfriends moving in and taking up space
Twirling round in fantasy whirlwinds, I now see my heads not on straight

I'm in college now
But I still do not know how
To take what's running through my mind
And tell it to the other kind
All the girls that hear this song
Please don't take this wrong
When a guy keeps looking at you
Maybe it's time to make a move
'Cause we don't always know how to
Talk with someone as pretty as you

S.I.P. #11 ("Untitled")

Where are you now?
They all said you'd save me
Said you'd make me happy
But, God I feel like sh**
Where is your salvation?
Don't wanna deal with it

This life I lead is quite pathetic
Sometimes I wonder if I have what it takes
Don't even know if I want to be great